Fall 2015: Reflection

The theme of this past semester for me was: economics.

What is economics and how does it affect us?

Yes, I know what you are thinking: what is a philosophy major doing talking about economics? Economics is the way that the world thinks, and so as a philosophy major, I have to study and understand it. Furthermore, I will be questioning it. Why economics, and what are its consequences?

Economics -- it is as simple as 1, 2, 3. Literally. It is a test of numbers and efficiency. Your goal is to maximize profit and minimize cost. It is good for business and good for decision-making. It is a way of life. It is now, THE way of life. Why?

We live in a world that constantly tells you, “You are MORE than just a number.” But then it judges your success with scores and stats and salaries. You are just one out of the seven billion people in the world. You are just one small piece of the targeted audience of a particular product. You are a statistic on a graph that shows how diverse your school or your company is. You are just another pawn in someone else’s life, and they’re calculating their next best move. Millions of people die every year; do you know any of their names? We are collateral damage to the game of numbers. Yes, you are still just a number. Why?

We live in a world that screams EQUALITY, but is that not just another equal sign in the operation of making everyone the same? Is that really the goal we are striving for? When equality turns into conformity and anyone different from you is forced to stay in line. When was life as easy as an equation, where the answer can be boxed in or defined?

You see, economics is the way we think. It is inescapable. No matter where we go and what we say, it will show itself again; it will pull us back into a world of numbers. But have we just given up on thinking outside of the box or are we blind to the four walls of this way of thinking and grown complacent where we are? Have we accepted that we are just a number and that success is just how many zeroes are on our paycheck or how many letters are behind our name? Have we forgotten how to love one another like brothers and sisters, and instead resolved to just locking ourselves up behind bars of comfort and elementary mathematics?

Charlie  

Once upon a time...

Once upon a time, it was okay to cry; it was okay to laugh uncontrollably; it was okay to stumble and fall; it was okay to not know, to be free of all cares, and to be nothing less than honest. It was okay to ask for help and to feel small; it was okay to dream crazy dreams and aspire to be like superman. Once upon a time, life was simple, but then I grew up. 

Summer of 2015: Class of Goodness

As if summer school was not enough, I found myself spending the rest of my summer lesson planning and grading papers as a teacher at my church's summer camp. After spending an intense six weeks with very intellectual and profound minds, I found myself face-to-face with third graders. While I had the luxury of learning from some great scholars and professors, I was now the one to instill some knowledge into the these seven/eight-year-olds. Needless to say, it was an experience like no other. I was prepared to be strict and lay down the law; I was ready with creative ways to discipline and rebuke; I was ready to be THAT teacher that they will never forget. I will argue that I did teach these children something but to be honest, I think they were the ones who taught me. I did not expect to see them grow in the span of the month that I was there; I did not expect to have a personal relationship with each one of the children; I did not expect to fall completely in love with my class and see God working so clearly in the lives of the children.  These kids were so transparent and so eager to learn. They are not at that age yet where they had a full-fleshed attitude but they definitely had some of the craziest personalities. They were the first to get upset but also the first to forgive. They sympathized with each other and encouraged each other. They loved each other like their own brothers and sisters. They have a curiosity and an eagerness like no other. They are filled with questions and anticipation to learn. They were also some of the most honest kids I've met. They admit their wrong almost instantly and accept punishment with understanding and reflection. It was amazing to see how pure and how simple their hearts were. This idea of having child-like faith is something we all say but not something we see often. It is such a beautiful and humbling thing to see these kids so full of energy and joy. They literally are mini-adults... with slightly large heads but so full of life. God has opened my heart to these children and showed me His heart for His children. As a father would teach his children, I had the opportunity to teach these children this summer, but more so, I had the opportunity to love these children the same way that God loves His. It was such a joy to see God working in every little detail of every single day and in every single one of the children. Every child was a blessing and it was truly a learning experience that I will never forget.

Summer of 2015: Summer School

Unlike most college kids, my freshmen year didn't really end with a big sigh of relief. If anything, it was just enough time for me to catch my breath and continue running. The first part of my summer was just me in summer school.  

While there are many reasons for people to take summer school, I took it because... well... I actually don't know. I just went online one day and signed up for classes. It felt like a whim and I never really took the time to ask myself why I felt the need to take summer classes. But I did and here I am now, rather excited to go back to school. 

I took two classes over the summer: Modern Philosophy and Rhetoric. 
Here are some things that I realized about Philosophy: 
1) Even from the very beginning, philosophers were trying prove the existence of God. 
2) Proofs for the existences of God were never as satisfying or convincing as I hoped for. 
3) So what was the point? 

During the entire class, I felt rather disappointed that no one had a convincing proof for God. The only thing that I was sure of after this class was that something exists somewhere that does things that we might or might not know about. That wasn't good enough. I was half expecting to read more about philosophers who gave a proof for no God, but I was not expecting a whole course of philosophers with proofs for God and to feel less convinced that God actually exists. God just seems to be this idea that people tack on at the end of their proof when they can no longer explain certain things. God seems to be the thing that conveniently fills all the void that our human limitations can never reach. Although some proved logical, none proved God to the satisfaction of believers and non-believers alike. So that got me thinking... What was the point? Why were solid proofs for God not convincing? How else can we convince people of God's existence, if he even exist at all? 

That unfortunately is a question for another post. I have yet to answer that question to the extent that I feel is comprehensive. (Feel free to comment if you want to take a stab at it.)  

The second class I took was a rhetoric class and there was only one thing that I took away from the class... which also only tangentially relevant. Near the end of the class, my professor shared with us the moment that he became an atheist. He was raised Catholic and one day, sitting in his room with a book open in front of him, he came to the conclusion that he did not believe in God. How he came to that conclusion is his personal story but that was his conclusion and from that day on, he was an atheist. The shocking part of the story is what he said after. He said that if there is no God ... then all we have ... is each other. From then he changed his life to advocate on many social issues in order to bring justice to those people... to all people. I was taken back by his story because I had such a misconstrued idea of what an atheist was like. They quite possibly have the biggest heart for the people of this world because these people are all that they can be certain of. This world is all that they know and care about, and they will be the first to stand for social change and bettering the lives of other people.  So where does that put me? 

Again, I have no answer yet to these questions. I don't know my standing yet on many social issues. But one thing I know for sure... once you add God into this equation, everything changes.Welp! That is all that I have for this post. I will try to answer those questions that I could not answer in a later post but until then... 

-Charlie

Till Death Do Us Part

Till death do us part.
The first thing that comes to my mind when I hear that phrase is marriage. That is what people say when they get married. Till death do us part... aka, I will love you until the day that you die. But is that all? Is your love only reserved for that one person? What if I used this phrase outside the context of marriage...?

Till death do us part.
Being in college and meeting new people everyday, I came to realize something a little unsettling. In life, we can say that we pick and chose our friends. If we don't like them, then we move on. If compatible, then best friends for life. But what about those people that we see on the street everyday, or that one person that sits next to you in class and the only meaningful conversation you had was to ask for a pencil. In those situations, what does it mean to say"till death do us part"?

For those you love, it is easy to say, I will love you until the day that you die. It is easy to want to shower those you love with all the blessings of the world. It is easy to love those who love you back. Is that to say that you love them because it is convenient? No. Loving people, being selfless, giving more of yourself to someone else and expecting nothing in return is not a convenient thing. Loving someone is never easy. No relationship is ever easy. Everything we do requires effort and time and energy. For some, it just seems easier to give effort and time and energy, especially when it is reciprocated.

For those that are harder to love, this notion of "till death do us part" can be a beacon of hope. You can look at it like this: you have until the day they die or the day you die to mend and to work on your relationship. Regardless if it is a good relationship or a not so great relationship, I am one to believe that every person you encounter, you meet for a reason. Every relationship you build has potential to be positive and constructive. It is a matter of how much effort, time and energy you decide to put into it. Relationships shouldn't be a bargain or a transaction. It shouldn't just be an opportunity to make connections or build your network. It is more important than that. It is about learning to give, learning to be vulnerable, and learning to do what seems most impossible at times, to love. Every time an argument occurs, make an effort to fix it. Some people will spend their entire lives confronting one problem, but isn't that enough. Until either one of you dies, there is still time to fix and mend. There is still time to make mistakes and learn. There is still time to love.

The scariest thing about that is that you never know when the other person is going to die. Nor do you know what you will die. Till death do us part.... in this one sentence is a sense of hope, but a greater sense of urgency.

Lastly, for those that we do not know so well- that one kid that sits next to you everyday, don't be shy to lend a hand but also don't miss out on an opportunity to build relationships. Now, I am not saying that you force them into being your best friend, but don't close that door before you go in. Sometimes, the greatest people you meet are those ones you never expected. Sometimes the best of friends are not the ones that are easy to love, but those that you learn to love, fail to love, but continue to love.

Blessed are Those Who Mourn...

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. - Matthew 5:4 

Mourn. What does it mean to mourn? People often use the word mourn in times of sadness and despair. We use it at funerals, hospital beds, and moments of complete helplessness. When we are faced with death -- be it a literal or figurative death -- we are left empty. A part of our reality feels stolen and robbed. The things that seem insignificant before are now tugging at our hearts. The way we see the world changes, and inevitably, we will change as well. But mourning is so much more than just a personal sadness or grief. The word mourn in Greek means "to lament". Lamenting is not a crying-in-the-corner sadness or the tears-in-your-pillow-at-night sadness, lamenting is public display of deep distress. Back in the old days, people tore their clothes in agony and wore sackcloth. It was a public display of very private emotions. It is seeing and understanding how broken our world is and being heartbroken because of it. It is seeing injustice and feeling hopeless. When we look at the statistics of how many people live without clean water, how many people die of starvation, how many people are sold into slavery, how many people die because of diseases and cancer, it is not hard to feel hopeless in these situations. We think to ourselves, "This isn't right. Things should never be this way." Those are the things we mourn over. 

"Things should never be this way..." 

The pain that we feel when we see the world as it is, is excruciating. 

We are a single being in this gigantic world. 

What are we to do other than mourn for the world? 

Where is this comfort that we seek? 

What kind of comfort can ever cover the amount of pain and suffering that happens in this world? 

The reason for the verse above is because there is an offering of hope. "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." The word blessed here translates to this notion of happiness. In other words, happy are people who mourn because they WILL be comforted. Those who mourn can rejoice because there is hope and because of that hope, they have an escape from their despair.  In the same way, that mourning is not only on the personal level. This comfort is also beyond our individual comfort. This verse isn't only about making one person feel better, it is about hope for the entire world. It is not only the restoration of people but of the world itself. Therefore, it is so right to say that things should never be the way it unfortunately is right now but that isn't the end. Comfort comes from the promise that this world will be healed. Whether or not you believe in a God does not change the fact that people in this world are actively trying to make this world a better place. As cliche as that sounds, there is hope all around us. In science, we have the pursuit for the cure for cancer. Non-profit organizations and charities that station themselves to provide food, clean water, and medicine for those who need it. People who donate their time, their resources, and even their lives to make sure that no child or person will have to suffer as he/she did. People who give themselves up for the greater well-being of the world. Be it physical, mental, emotional, and/or spiritual healing, we all need to be rescued. The world needs hope and we have the ability to share the hope that we've received. The comfort we feel should move us to bring that same comfort to other people. Be it a temporary comfort or an eternal comfort, there is hope for this world and good news is, it is already in this world. Hope is in the individual who understand first the hopelessness and second the promise of comfort. As idealistic and utopian this may sound, I believe that to be true. There is hope in this world and there will be a day where pain is no more, tears are no more, and those who mourn will forever be comforted. 

-Charlie 

Snow. Tahoe. SNOW!!!

Psalm 95:4-5

In his hand are the depths of the earth, and the mountain peaks belong to him.  The sea is his, for he made it, and his hands formed the dry land.

So imagine a 5 year old kid who is seeing snow for the first time....

SNOW!!! SOOO PRETTY!!! It's like walking into a magical forest! 

SNOW BALL FIGHT!!! How can something so pretty hurt?! 

That view... *melting*.... <-- haha get it? Melting?! No?... it's okay, just keep staring at the pictures...

This picture doesn't do this mountain justice... it was GINORMOUS! AN ENORMOUS GIANT!!!

THE SNOW MAKES A HEART!!! SO MUCH HAPPINESS AND JOY! 

It feels like it's snowing! hehe  =P 

We missed the sunset but that is okay... This is still pretty awesome!  =)

I feel so small... 

If everything I understood about this world were a grain of sand, I would end up with only a handful of the entire beach...

It was such a beautiful weekend away, seeing snow for the first time and just marveling at creation. In the midst of such wonder it is difficult to not feel overwhelmed, not to feel small. Imagine, if every grain of sand and drop of water has a place in creation, will I not also? 

Romans 1:20

For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities--his eternal power and divine nature--have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

- Charlie